I begin thinking about what I can do to make the next year of my life different. I begin to actually day dream! When was the last time you were day dreaming about something that gave you joy?
This last year has been a struggle for me. Finances is always #1, I really hate that! So I have decided that I will not waste my time on day dreaming about money. You know the day dreams of "If I could just win the lottery".... sigh..... Or maybe "If somebody would come into my life and hand me a million dollars" ...... Well its time to wake up Tamaria Lorree!!! That is not going to happen in a million billion years!! Get over it and day dream about what really matters in the here and now. Thats right! I'm giving myself a pep talk.
I vow that I will sit in the sun more and close my eyes and day dream about what I can do to make a positive change for myself and my family. Negative thoughts have drifted into my life in such a way that it is affecting my relationships with the people I love and care about. It makes me really grumpy and unpleasant to be around. That needs to stop in my 55th year of life! If I live to be 100, I'm half way there. Can't imagine my loved ones wanting to put up with such a grumpy old lady for another 50 plus years! God save the Queen! and God save my boys from such trial!
So I begin and new journey. I will pray daily for guidance. I will stop myself from unpleasant comments to others. My words will be in a positive manner and not directed as negative. "If you can't say any thing nice, don't say anything at all".
I will do yoga at least once a week to stay calm. I will knit with joy and spin my little heart out.
Most of all I plan to spend more time talking with the ones I love and taking the time with them to find out what brings them joy. I will hug more and ask for a hug more.
I will get my JOY back!
