Goodness!
Its been a year since I've updated this blog!
Last I updated my son was about to be married to the love of his life.
Well we got through a beautiful 103* day on July 2,

2015. It was the hottest
day of the year. A memory of love commitment and joy! It was a delightful 
day for sure!
A year later also brings me to a year of healing from the grief of the lose of my
sweet Momma. It was a year in February, but it seems so real still and more raw
than I had ever imagined feeling. Every day is a journey to healing, but I never 
thought it would take so long to get there. She truly was my hero in life.
What am I doing to find joy in my life? I fill my days of course with a sit at a desk
job. I love my work. I meet patients all day who have life stories galore. They are a 
blessing to me. 
I have recently taken up "Dance Exercise" with a friend and love it. It really does 
help to exercise and revive my brain and soul with something that makes me smile.
I still knit, spin and weave. This part of my world brings great joy. Fills my thoughts
with design, color and a sense of accomplishment. 
Happy Summer 2016. Life is good and the days are long and restful.

Summer is in full swing and we are on the cusp of a wedding for the first time in our family!

Our youngest son is to married on July 2nd to the lovely and beautiful Chloe. 

We are over the moon excited to accept this dear lady into our family of mostly men!

This all means that I finally get to gain a little more girl power in my life.

Joy is all around us we just need to look for it and accept it into our hearts.

Summer is Finally Here!

After an extremely cold Winter, which we would all like to forget, my garden is finally coming

out and is in full growth and glory!

Summer is here and the days are long and warmer than even a month ago. 

I've been spinning like a crazy lady on my deck. Getting my bobbins cleared and ready for 

the Sheep to Shawl competition for Black Sheep Gathering here in Eugene.

My team of amazing spinners and weavers have put together a beautiful shawl that will WOW

the judges!  Ok maybe not WOW them as much as give them ponder to wonderful abilities

in fiber knowledge as well as spinning and weaving. 

June 20th is coming soon and we will be ready for a full day of fun!

Fall

God really got it right when he decided we needed what we call "Fall". 

I look at it as a time for great change. 

I begin by cleaning out the garden. Everything starts to wilt and curl and mold. Its time to cut out what was once fresh and new, but now is dead and rotting. 

In a sense thats how life can be. Every once in a while we need to get rid of the tireless, old rotting stuff and re-fresh once again!

I really enjoy this process. The garden looks fresh and is ready and waiting for Spring again. There is a feeling of accomplishment and anticipation of change.

This year our change is cleaning out closets and rooms. Our oldest son has moved to a different town and is realizng his reality of change and what that means for him.

We too are figuring that out as well. With that move, we have been forced to re-arrange our world as well. Cleaning out closets, washing walls, a coat of new paint in what was once an old space, now a new fresh space. Waiting for change to move in.

The leaves are beginning to change to a beautiful new color, soon to drop to the ground. Ready to be blown in the wind to a new place.

Everything needs to experience change.

What will your change be the Fall? 

Handspun Rommney Wool Getting ready to change

Change a beautiful shade of Fall Sky!
PRAISE

Summer, a time for me to rest and re-energize. This Summer for me is the start of a new job. I have worked as a dental assistant for the past 30 years. My body is no longer able to work standing on my head looking in peoples mouths all day. I have now become a receptionist. Making the same money. I love this job! I really am working hard this summer with little to no time to relax. I have carved out some time to spin and knit. That time is precious to me and I guard it intensely.
I have been carding this lovely fleece that I bought in February with some friends. We each took 1/3 of it, splitting it 3 ways. The name of the sheep is Aristine and she is a Romney. Her fleece is like a dalmatian with spots of white, grey, and black. Even though romney can be course, hers seems to be soft and beautiful as its spun. After I have spun it all my plan is to dye the yarn.

At the shearing of Aristine, we bought on the spot

Aristine spun and dyed. Not the color I'm going for.
This was just a test dye, but still love it!

March is a New Beginning for Me!

When March comes around I always look at it as a new beginning. It's my birthday month! 
I begin thinking about what I can do to make the next year of my life different. I begin to actually day dream! When was the last time you were day dreaming about something that gave you joy? 
This last year has been a struggle for me. Finances is always #1, I really hate that! So I have decided that I will not waste my time on day dreaming about money. You know the day dreams of "If I could just win the lottery".... sigh..... Or maybe "If somebody would come into my life and hand me a million dollars" ...... Well its time to wake up Tamaria Lorree!!! That is not going to happen in a million billion years!! Get over it and day dream about what really matters in the here and now. Thats right! I'm giving myself a pep talk. 
I vow that I will sit in the sun more and close my eyes and day dream about what I can do to make a positive change for myself and my family. Negative thoughts have drifted into my life in such a way that it is affecting my relationships with the people I love and care about. It makes me really grumpy and unpleasant to be around. That needs to stop in my 55th year of life! If I live to be 100, I'm half way there. Can't imagine my loved ones wanting to put up with such a grumpy old lady for another 50 plus years! God save the Queen! and God save my boys from such trial! 
So I begin and new journey. I will pray daily for guidance. I will stop myself from unpleasant comments to others. My words will be in a positive manner and not directed as negative. "If you can't say any thing nice, don't say anything at all". 
I will do yoga at least once a week to stay calm. I will knit with joy and spin my little heart out. 
Most of all I plan to spend more time talking with the ones I love and taking the time with them to find out what brings them joy. I will hug more and ask for a hug more. 
I will get my JOY back! 

Happy New Year 2013

Happy New Year 2013!
Here's a view of my beautiful family
From Left: Cameron 19, Myself ( age denial), My Hubby (old as dirt, but still in love), Luke 19, Johnnie 24, Daniel 21
Heres' to Joy and Love all around us!